The Tense Is There...

I really hate to admit this... but I guess I am having a nervous break down... and phobia too.. its all due to the heavy rain and flood thingy that happen in my life recently.. Its haunted my mind.. day and night.. I can't sleep well even I know that I am not in the research station... I don't feel that safe anymore... I can't eat well... I can't even think straight... I can't remember exactly what day is the next day without looking at my mobile calendar.. I can't even type correctly and have to double check every things... I can't remember things without jotting it down.. Been having headache for the past few days.. been eating my pills but it won't go away... I hate living my life like this.. I should be happy and enjoying it... But I just can't... Day-dreaming most of the time.. and I don't even know what I was thinking... God help me to pass thru this time...

I've got my exam result already.. Got a Dean List... hehehhe... It makes my day... I know I don't work hard enough.. Been nervous about it but thanks God.. It come out very well.. So.. Till next time....

The Cleaning Process

These are some of the equipment that were save after the flood... Went there last wednesday.. Cleans everythings inside my bro apartment.. It was tiring..

Flood Update

Here some of the photos of my hoise in Kuala Lompat.. Was flooded... Will update more on it...

The Suffering..

Dear Friends..

Sorry if was not able to reply your sms or e-mail... still in the shock.. my house back in Pahang was flooded.. up to the roof... so I am in the process of accessing the lost... Will update more on these... Thanks for being there!

A Small Reunion..

I went up to KL to meet up with an old friends.. very old one.. I knew them back in KML... we were a group of girls who likes to have fun.. a real fun... So I met up with Amus and Ina today... we talk and talk and talk... its just that we cant stop talking.. there's so much to tell but there's not enough time... I guess we misses those time that we left behind... We always had this things, a weekly truth and dare game in the beach.. and we will dare people to tell the truth.. or the sharing thingy.. we shared our feelings with each other... we were like a sisters... There's 7 of us that time, Me, Amus, Ina, Amie, Ryan and 2 more girls that I cant remember their names... its been more than 8 years... Each of us have their own strength and weaknesses.. but we manage cause we were there to support each other.. thru happiness and sadness... I guess when all of us went to the U, the friendship drift apart... and i don't know why... each and every night I have been wondering.. and it seems that I don't have the right answers to that.. but I know that back than, it was difficult to contact each other.. we don't even have handphone like now... no friendster.. no myspace... no facebook... so we are mending the broken chains... I hope sooooo...

So today, I met up with Amus at the Bandar Tasik Selatan KTM and we head to Midvalley. HAd lunch at Domino's and the we went straight to The Gardens.. the new shopping mall next to Midvalley.. we went around waiting for Ina to pick us up. And when Ina arrived, we went to One Utama, Damanasara. Going around like a teenage kids. And we found a nice belt for Amus but she decided not to buy it... and then we listen to an orchestra for a while before heade to Amcorp Mal. Amus wanted to buy a TV series DVD of Desperate Housewives and turn out that they run out of stock. so we had dinner at Sri Suria and headed back home. Its very tiring though.... but I had fun with them. Here are some of the photos...

The orchestra team

Amus keliru memikirkan belt yang cantik itu... hehehe

Our Dinner at Sri Suria

And Amus... Tersipu-sipu di himpit jejaka...

Love Like This..

To: Winston Churchil Layang.. this song is for you.. and yes! you...

Oh…
Never find a love like this

Well we go back so far,
swingin in your back yard,
all the things that we used to do
We were cool back in high school
ooh I really liked you,
must have been your attitude.

That’s why you keep on runnin
in and out of my mind.
As the years they’ll roll by,
Baby, now I know why
I keep comin back to you.

You’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this

Well this life tried to keep us apart
you keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I'm so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this.

All the guys tried to take me,
you’re the one who saved me,
I feel like I owe you my life.
And as strange as it may seem,
I’ll go if you take me
I'm willing to sacrifice.

That’s why you keep on runnin
in and out of my mind.
As the years, they’ll roll by,
it’s not hard to know why
I keep comin back to you.

You’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.

Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this.

Cause this life tried to keep us apart,
you keep calling me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I'm so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this.

May never find a love, love, love a love like this,
that still make me think about my middle school kiss.
I sit here in this chair and I wish
for you not to leave me now.
My friends they always told me
not to make you my wifey,
man they was putting you down.
And now they see we rollin,
me and you, we strollin,
they don’t wanna come around.

Let me hear you say,
you’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this.

When this life tries to keep us apart,
you keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I’m so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this,

Oh… Never find a love like this…
When this life tried to keep us apart,
you keep callin me back to your heart,
Let me hear you say,
Oh… Never find a love like this.
Oh… Never find a love like this

The Shopaholic

I guess I should be writing more on my shopping habits... I just can't help it. I loves buying shoes, books, handbags and accessories but never really use it. If you don't trust it, come to my house and you will see all those stuff that I never really wear. I have a big collection of all these, especially shoes and accessories. The accessories is the most, its not that I bought them all, I make some of it but still I have to buy the materials... I know my beloved Sayang have been telling me not to buy stuff that I don't really need. But I tell you, I cant keep my mind in peace until I got what I want. When he was around, I have someone to control over my money as he will always ask me, when I am going to wear it and for what. Sometimes I come out with a very good reason that he will just let me bought it and making sure that I will use it. But, here in KL.. no one controls me.. I had 100 % control over my money and what I want to buy. When I migrated to KL, I only have 2 bags of my cloths,2 boxes of my educational books, a flip flop and my nike shoe for futsal.. Now I have more than 2 bags of cloths,more than 5 boxes of books of different type and more than 10 pairs of shoes of different type for different function. When I got back to Kuching, I guess I will have enough supply for the next 10 years. And my Sayang will be mad at me. I know, I know... I can't help me... especially when I am worried, buying shoes will make my days and it will keep me happy for the next 2 or 3 weeks... its a way that I pampered myself.... I don't get enough loves and cares here what.. I am away from all my friends, my sayang and my family.. I don't get to do my regular stuff like swimming, futsalling and many more.. so I am trying hard to cope with my life here.. Is just that KL is not a good place for me to stay cause I end up buying stuffs and wasting my money... OMG! I need someone to control me...

Off and On

I have been very busy for the past few weeks. Checking my fruits trees at my research site, helping my friends with their bats research as they never done it before and with WCS T4T workshop. And this wednesday, I will be off again to the field to do my work. Its been hectic but I enjoy it. I get to takes some nice lovely photos while doing all these and its add up my photos collection. I am so loving it. Despite all the ups and downs, I guess. So, here some of the photos from recent trips..

The Bats Surveys



p/s : I don't know what is wrong with the connection, its very-very-very slow that i hardly manage to upload these 2 photos for 3 hours... damn it. will try it again tomorrow