Nature-Loving Shopaholic

6 more weeks..

2011-07-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

And baby Q will pop out. In 2 weeks time, Baby Q will be fully mature and ready to see the world. As for that we will have to see the doctor for full-term scanning and will start to visit the clinic every week. As much as I am excited to see our little one, I am not afraid admitting that I am actually scared. Seeing the due is coming soon, I've prepared 3 bags to bring to the hospital. one is for me, One is for the baby and one is for other essential like hot water flask n toiletries. I am yet to prepare 2 more bags, one is for my hubby and one for emergency, in case we have to stay longer in the hospital. Only by preparing all this stuff early, I can at least rest at night time without worrying that our little one will pop out anytime. I don't like feeling unprepared. Even so I am still feeling unprepared. I am nervous because soon my life will change again, I am just started to get use of being someone wife and now, I'll be someone mother's. I hope I can be the best mom for my little one...

Yours Truly =)

Summer Infant: Heart-to-Heart Prenatal Listening System

2011-06-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

The Heart-to-Heart Prenatal Listening System from Summer Infant is a wonderful way to hear and share the precious sounds of your unborn baby's tiny heart. The unit does not use ultrasound technology, is safe and non-invasive. It is the perfect way to start the bonding process with your baby. Recording cable allows you to record the heartbeat to your home computer to share with family and friends. Heartbeat sensor allows you to start listening to your baby's heartbeat, hiccups and kicks starting around the middle of the second trimester. Looks like a cool invention for parents !!

Its finally arrived safely last week. But when I first use it on my 30th week, my husband and i barely can hear the heartbeat. But last night, after my 31st week I tried it again using different headphone, which is expensive one, and tada I can hear the heartbeat clearly. tried recording the sound too and I manage to do it but again the sound only can be heard clearly if I use headphone or speaker. I don't know what wrong but I guess it because I record them using the sound recorder software just from my lappy. Whatever that is I seriously recommend this device to parents out there who is always curios on how their baby is doing..

Yours Truly =)

Cloth Diaper For Newborn

2011-06-09T13:59:00.001+08:00

Finally its here.. The Newborn (NB) Cloth Diaper (CD) that I order from Ridzs Collections. I fall in love instantly when I open the Poslaju package and found out that it was the special CD for NB that I ordered a week ago. The color was so perfect. The material was so soft. It was perfect the way I imagine it. So to soon-to-be mommy out there who is determine to use CD for their baby since Day 1, feel free to contact Rifzs Collection to order yours.. The owner is a very nice lady...

Yours Truly =)

Cara Membasuh Cloth Diaper (CD)

2011-06-03T15:56:00.000+08:00

Saya sebenarnya takde pengalaman lagi nak cuci CD yang telah digunakan oleh baby. Saya cuma ada pengalaman cuci CD yang baru dibeli. tapi saya nak share juga kat sini macam mana cara nak basuh CD.

Mula-mula kena buat prewash sekurang-kurangnya 3 kali tanpa menggunakan sabun. Lepas wat prewash ni, kena test gak samada CDtu dah menyerap ker belum. Caranyer dengan memasukkan insert dia ke dalam pocket CD and then tuang air atas CD tu dan perhatikan samada air menyerap atau tidak. selain itu, kita boleh juga tekan dengan jari tapi dengan lembut, alah-alah punggung baby tekan CD tulah kononnyer.. hehehhe.. Kalau dah menyerap, jemur semula jer tuk keringkan dan boleh disimpan untuk kegunaan baby. Kalau tak menyerap lagi, sila buat prewash lagi. Kalau dah buat banyak kali tapi still tak menjadi, basuh CD tadi dengan air yang suam-suam kuku. Insya allah menyerap lah dia tak lama lagi.

Untuk CD yang telah digunakan; sekiranya ada poo-poo baby, buang semua poo-poo ke dalam tandas dan jirus CD sehingga bersih. Kalau nak senang, guna flushable nappy liner atau pun washable nappy liner. So tak lah kena pada CD tu. Lepas tu, just kumpul CD dalam baldi. sampai masa boleh cuci guna mesin basuh ataupun hand wash. Masa cuci CD tak boleh guna sabun biasa tu, kena guna yang khas untuk pakaian baby or kids. Ataupun beli sabun cuci yang termurah dipasaran. Janji bahan kimianya tak terlampau tinggi dan takde peluntur. kalau nak CD tahan, kena guna laundry net masa basuh dengan mesin basuh. Nak tahan lebih lama, jom basuh secara manual. hehehhe...

dah siap basuh, as usual kena lah jemur. palaing elok dibawah cahaya matahari. Nak jemur dalam rumha pun tak apa actually. Tak menjadi masalah. Dah kering bolehlah angkat dan sediakan untuk kegunaan harian.

Mudah dan senang gitu.. hehhehe

Yours Truly =)

CLOTH DIAPER

2011-06-02T11:25:00.002+08:00

Since I knew that I am pregnant, I was determine to use Cloth Diaper for the little one instead of disposable diaper. The reason behind it is to help saving the earth, in a way that we'll train our baby to be nature lover just like us. Disposable diaper ada macam2 bahan kimia yang menyebabkan baby rasa sentiasa kering and sometimes these lead to diaper rashes to some babies. these are some of the chemicals inside the disposable diaper;

1)Dioxin, which in various forms has been shown to cause cancer, birth defects, liver damage, and skindiseases, genetic damage, is a by-product of the paper-bleaching process used in manufacturing disposable diapers, and trace quantities may exist in the diapers themselves. Dioxin is listed by the EPA as the most toxic of cancer related chemicals

2)Tributyl-tin (TBT) – a toxic pollutant known to cause hormonal problems in humans and animals
3)Sodium polyacrylate -If you have ever seen the gel-like, super absorbent crystals in a disposable than you have seen this first hand. Sodium polyacrylate is the same substance that was removed from tampons because of its link to toxic shock syndrome.Disposable diapers is the 3rd biggest rubbish contributes in the earth even though only 5% of world population are using it.Selain itu, it takes 500 tahun untuk disposable diaper untuk terurai. Save the earth with Cloth Diaper!

Selain daripada itu, kita juga dapat jimatkan duit perbelanjaan rumah dengan menggunakan cloth diaper. Penggunaannya yang boleh digunkan berulang kali dan tahan lama adalah sangat economical.Bayangkanlah sehelai Cloth Diaper (CD) boleh digunakan sehingga 3 tahun dan jika dijaga dengan betul boleh digunakan untuk anak yang seterusnya. Dibawah adalah contoh pengiraan yang telah saya buat berdasarkan harga pasaran. Harga mungkin berubah pada bila-bila masa.

	Lunatots CD	Disposable Diaper Biasa	Disposable Diaper Mahal
2 bulan pertama	20pcs x RM48 = RM960	12 pcs x RM0.60 x 60days = RM432	12 x RM1.20 x 60 days = RM864
34 bulan seterusnya	-	6pcs x RM0.60 x 30 days x 34 months = RM3,672	6pcs x RM1.20 x 30 days x 34 months = RM7,344
Tahun ke -4	-	6pcs x RM0.60 x 30 days x 12 months = RM1,296	6pcs x RM1.2 x 30 days x 12 months = RM2,592
Jumlah	RM960.00	RM5,400.00	RM10,800.00

Gambar dibawah adalah contoh perbezaan size bagi CD Lunatots dan QQ Baby. Jika anda bercadang untuk menggunakan CD sejak baby lahir, saya sangat galakkan untuk membeli Lunatots CD sbb sizenya yang kecil berbanding QQ Baby atau CD jenama lain dipasaran seperti Coolababy. Namun ini hanyalah pedoman dan terpulanglah kepada mana-mana pihak untuk memilih yang mana satu. Harga pasaran bagi kedua-dua CD ini juga adalah berbeza. QQ Baby adalah lebih murah berbanding Lunatots tetapi saya tidak pasti dari segi penyerapan dan daya tahan nya. Have to wait for another 2 years supaya saya boleh update mengenai perbezaan CD ini...

S Size for Lunatots (Left) and S size for QQ Baby (Right)

XL Size for Lunatots (Left) and XL size for QQ Baby (Right)

Whatever your decision is,its up to you. I've choose to use this CD for my baby. And I only hope the best for all of you out ther. Save the earth and Back to Nature...

Yours Truly =)

Petua-Petua Mudah Bersalin

2011-05-23T12:24:00.002+08:00

Ever since I know that I am having our little one inside my belly, I've done a lot of research and reading on how to deliver easily and what to do and what not. Tapi betul ker semua tu eh? I've no experience yet but will have one soon. So based on kerajinan asking here and there I've listed down some of the tips or petua from what I read and what I've obtained from the eldest and moms with experience.. I do hope that this will help inexperience moms out there, or even those with experience...

Banyakan beramal ibadat bagi yang beragama Islam ataupun agama lain
Banyakkan membaca ayat Quran untuk yag beragama Islam. Amalkan membaca surah Maryam, Yusof, Luqman dan Surah Yaasin.
Amalkan ayat Nabi Nuh dan Ayat al-Ma'thurat. Ayat Nabi Nuh ; La ila ha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minoz zholimin. Ayat Al-Ma'thurat ; Bismillahillazi la yadhorru ma'asmihi syaion fil ard wala fissama e wa huwas sami ul alim.
Air Sanggul Fatimah. kalau ikut yang saya diberitahu oleh sepupu suami, before nak bersalin tu just rendam and minum air nya tapi dari info yang saya dapat sebaiknya minum seminggu sebelum tarikh due ianya untuk senang melahirkan dan akan membuka rongga rongga dlm rahim. Tak tau lah mana satu betul kan..
Air basuhan rambut. Sewaktu mandi dan dah siap bersihkan satu badan termasuk rambut,siram rambut dan isap titisan air yg mengalir hujung rambut tu dan berserta niat dihati sebagai mana senangnya air ini mengalir begitu juga senang nya aku melahirkan.. aku pun x sempat buat lagi ni. must do it soon...
Rajin-rajinkan lah diri berjalan dan kalau boleh berenang lagi bagus.. rumah saya takde kolam renang, kalau tak boleh gak buat aksi terapung.... hehehhe
Air selusuh / minyak selusuh. Doktor tak benarkan minum air ni sbb risiko baby lemas. Air ni rasa nya lagi elok kalau di buat sapu dari dada terus ke bawah atau kemaluan kita.Dari belakang hingga ke bawah punggung berserta dengan niat dihati sebagai mana senangnya air ini mengalir begitu juga senang nya aku melahirkan
Satu lagi, jangan lupa untuk minta maaf daripada suami dan ibubapa... saya selalu marah2 suami selama mengandung terutama bila saya minta dia buat sesuatu dan dia buat-buat tak tau. Saya tau dosa saya banyak kat dia tapi bila nak marah tu saya lupa semua. Dia selalu usik 'mommy hormon meningkat'.. saya tau dia tak ambik hati sebab dia paham saya tengah berusaha bersabar menghadapi cabaran selama mengandungkan anak kami. Yang, saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki k, takde niat pun nak marah sayang atau berkasar dengan sayang... aiks, sempat iklan.. hehehe

Apa-apa pun hopefully, info ni dapat membantu saya dan ibu-ibu atau bakal2 ibu diluar sana...

Yours Truly =)

Jom Teka Jantina Baby...

2011-05-20T08:00:00.001+08:00

Tanda Bayi Lelaki

Anda tidak mengalami morning sickness yang teruk pada awal kehamilan atau mungkin tiada langsung.
Degupan jantung bayi kurang dari 140 kali dalam satu minit
Anda rasakan beban berat dan bahagian depan tubuh
Perut anda kelihatan bulat sempurna
Bahagian aerola (daerah hitam di sekitar puting) akan menjadi lebih gelap
Bentuk perut condong ke arah bawah
Sukakan makanan yang masam dan masin
Suka makan daging dan keju
Tapak kaki selalu berasa sejuk
Tangan selalu kekeringan
Suka menghadapkan wajah ke utara semasa tidur
Bukan hanya anda, tetapi suami juga bertambah berat badannya.
Anda kelihatan lebih berseri semasa hamil
Hidung tampak lebih mekar
Selalu sakit kepala

TANDA BAYI PEREMPUAN

Mengalami morning sickness di awal kehamilan
Merasakan beban berat pada bahagian pinggul dan punggung
Payudara kiri lebih besar berbanding kanan
Rambut anda berwarna agak kemerahan daripada sebelumnya
Bentuk perut condong ke arah atas
Perut tampak agak lonjong
Mengidam makanan yang manis
Sukakan buah-buahan
Suka minum air atau jus yang bersifat masam
Anda lebih cerewet semasa hamil
Mudah moody berbanding sebelumnya
Kulit wajah bermasalah berbanding sebelum hamil
Tidak suka makan roti bersama kulitnya
Payudara kelihatan mengembang
Suka menghadapkan wajah ke selatan semasa tidur

Tambahan simptom berdasarkan selama mengandung

sangat suka mengemas rumah
sangat mengemari nasi ayam dan ayam goreng. tiap hari kalau boleh nak makan ayam jer...
kulit sangat sensitif, mandi pun rasa gatal juger

Berdasarkan senarai yang saya bold di atas, macam mana nak teka jantina baby saya.. saya pun tak paham.. tapi saya dah tau apa jantina baby saya actually.. hopefully this list will help moms out there who is still wondering about their baby gender...

Yours Truly =)

Big Shot Machine

2011-05-19T09:16:00.002+08:00

its finally here.. I've got mine already. But haven't been able to try it on because I haven't bought any dies or embossing folder. I am so happy that I bought it. Its an investment to my store. When I have the dies later on, which I've pre-ordered from Crafty Heart Online Store my work would be much easier. Less cutting using scissor but more with this machine. I'll have almost 100% look alike pattern later on. I have ordered 5 Dies and Embossing Folder from My bestie shop. Hopefully it will arrive safely by next 2 weeks. These 2 photos below are the dies n embossing folder that I've ordered. More to order for the next preorder. For now I have selected 55 Dies n embossing folder, but I have to filter more than half of it. Hopefully I'll manage to resist the temptation as I am planning to get the Zutter Bind-It-All machine next month too.

Yours Truly =)

Pregnancy- Sharing is caring

2011-05-03T11:26:00.000+08:00

I was thinking of having another blog as to write everything about my pregnancy, knowledge on pregnancy and everything about pregnancy. But to maintain too many blogs at the same time, i must admit is a very tough job for me because I only have 2 blogs now and i hardly update them. So I decided to just share everything here, in this blog. the post will be in either in english or malay or maybe both. depending on the topic and how easy to translate it to other languages. Mind you, my english is not perfect and I am still learning day by day. So i might have problem translating it to english.. hehehe...

My next post will be about my pregnancy but I am not sure when I am going to write about it because I am currently busy trying to finish all the office work because I'll be on leave starting this Thursday til next Wednesday. I am off home. Can't wait to be home... Missing my family so much edi..

Yours Truly =)

Craft Supplies for My Craft Shop

2011-04-28T13:34:00.000+08:00

Since I have order this time around, so I need to buy few craft supplies to complete the order. I bought 6 pack of split ring, few pack of buttons and few meters of ribbons from my supplier. It was a relief when I received all the items because I can proceed with the order.. I am still waiting for few more and hopefully it will arrive soon..

To Order or View My Craft Shop, Please go HERE

Yours Truly =)

B.U.R.I.E.D

2011-04-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

Yes! that's me.. at home i am being buried in books since I am rearranging all the furniture in our rented house.. need to make the living room looks more spacey and easy to clean.. I am too bored because I am all alone in the house.. my hubby is not around for a week due to his duty.. hopefully tonite I will be able to put all the books to where they belong...

While in the office, I am buried under all the thousands paper... I have to print out 5 months of report. Each need 12 copy. The average of all the report are 75 pages. I am surrounded by paper today. And I am too tired to do other stuff.. and the bad news is eventhough tomorrow is Good Friday, I have no holiday because in Peninsular Malaysia there's no public holiday for Good Friday.. sigh...
Yours Truly =)

First Years Close & Secure Sleeper

2011-04-20T11:19:00.001+08:00

Baby Sleeper - Open & Fold Baby Sleeper in use

This is the latest addition to My Baby Q Shopping List.. I wasn't actually planning to get it until I saw it.. and I am loving it because its so handy and wonderful in its own way.. Hopefully Baby Q will love to sleep here plus the baby pillow that I sew last 2 week for Baby Q... Sleep tight Baby Q

Yours Truly =)

To BF or not BF

2011-04-07T11:08:00.001+08:00

it's not BF as in bestfriend I mean here.. It's BreastFeed the baby... It might confuse some of you especially to those who hasn't have a baby yet or not pregnant yet and that's including my BFF (this one is Best Friend Forever.. hehehe).. I felt weird too when I first use it because I know the other meaning than this one.. But anyway, since I am 5 months plus pregnant now, I've decide to fully Bf my soon to be born baby. Hopefully it will be a success. So,I've been reading and googling all the needed information on this matter and asking a lot of question to all my friends with BF experience and I am only hoping that all these useful information can be use when the time comes. I've even bought an electric breastpump so that I can keep some stock in the freezer for my baby when I have to be away from him/her. I will do actually because I have to attend few meetings and do site visit.All I hope now is that I will be able to BF my baby til maybe 2yrs old. Please pray for us and our baby.. nothing is the best but mommy's milk...

Yours Truly =)

Will You be A Cool Parent

2011-04-06T15:53:00.003+08:00

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and the result are...

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.

You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.

While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.

You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

Yours Truly =)

Shopping For The Little One

2011-03-25T11:03:00.000+08:00

My Baby Check List of the Essential Stuff and few additional stuff is slowly taken off the list.. all the important stuff and expensive and difficult to get here are off the list too.. Today I am waiting for The BabyBright Playmat and The Snuzzler. Hopefully it will arrive safely... I've been doing this for the last 3 months and since most of the baby item is off the list already, I can smile and breath easily. Its now time to get The Mommy CheckList for the next buy. Mine was not that many actually, just some herbs, infra red socks, nursing bra and pad and few more.. Even I was doing the shopping and spend almost half of my salary to it, I felt relieved every time the stuff arrived because I know I am doing the best for my baby.. The most expensive one is the travel system (stroller and car seat), and then the cloth diapers, followed by the Baby Swing.. But not a second I regret buying those expensive stuff for my little one because I know it is safe for my baby use and can be use for the next baby, if there's any.. hehehe...

Hopefully in the next 2 months all the stuff in the are already off the list.. wish me luck..

Yours Truly =)

Emo and Preggo

2011-03-21T11:02:00.002+08:00

Woke up this morning and hubby is not around.. suddenly I felt like there's something missing in my life.. I try to be strong but I can't.. Tears fall down... Suddenly I realize I miss him so much.. and he was just gone for a day.. what about the next 9 days?

Yours Truly =)

the new meaning of life

2011-03-14T10:18:00.002+08:00

I know its Still 5 months away.. but seeing my life right now is seeing my future too.. I've give up a lot of stuff for the unborn little me.. I've give up shopping for myself.. I only shop for the little one now.. I stop savings money for myself but for not for the little one.. I abandoned my high heels even before time.. I try to stop drinking my favorite drinks (still drinks sometimes when I can't resist it).. I don't eat junk food anymore.. there's so many things that I've left behind me even when I am not fully ready but I have to be strong for the little one... I guess being a mom will not be easy as people say, I might have to give up more in the future and for that I am literally preparing my mind to face it in the future.. and hopefully the little one will be a bright one..

Yours Truly =)

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2011-02-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

To be honest, I have so many to tell but I can't tell everything in here. But for sure, I want to know what is wrong and what is right in our daily life. If I do something, I know its the right things to do but yet its wrong in their eyes. If I didn't cook lunch because my hubby is not going home for lunch and I'll just pack something for my lunch and for us its the right things to do but to them that is wrong. When we had dinner outside once in a while because we just want to enjoy our night together and we feel its the right things to do, yet its wrong in their eyes. If I didn't go to their house just because I am tired and have a lot of works to do, it will be an issue. But when I am at their house, they questioned me why I am there plus the sour-face. What is right for me to do and what is wrong for me to do. I seriously don't know and don't really care anymore because I am tired of all your nonsense and your rightness feeling. I know I am not perfect and I am learning everyday on how to manage our family, and so far my husband doesn't complain anything and he knows that I am working hard to make sure everything is up to his standard. He knows I need a time to rest because I work too from 8am-5pm everyday, just like him. And we are happy the way we live our life, so can't you be happy for us too?

Yours Truly =)

Merry Xmas

2010-12-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is Xmas Day. Few of my friends are celebrating them. And that's including my BFF, Debbie. I really hope that she will have a good day this year around, I bet she would because she have her brother there and her family too. I haven't posted her present yet because I hasn't been able to go out to town to mail it. Its a Xmas and her coming 29th birthday gift. I hope she will like it. I am dying to put up the photo here but it won't be a surprise anymore if I do that. Another parcel that should be on the way soon is for Shemah kids. She had a pair of awesome kids and I wish i will have a pair of awesome kids someday. Its been weeks since I promise to mail them but being a very forgetful person, I always end up not bring the parcel with me when I have business to do in town. You know how bad I want the Pos Malaysia to have their services here in this little place. Its drives me crazy getting my parcels every time I ordered something. BUt it will not be in a zillion years..

what ever it is, I hope Debbie will have a merrier Xmas Day. and Shemah will have her kids with her too, since both of them were back in Sabah with their grandma.

Yours Truly =)

Online Shopping

2010-12-22T16:57:00.001+08:00

Three days in a row, I was doing online shopping. Most of it are for my online craft shop. And now I am waiting for all the items to be arrived safely. Hopefully. I've spend almost RM1K in just a couple of days. Didn't I warn you that I have difficulties when it come to shopping. And especially now when we can simply click everything and do it online. My hubby will asked me what I need those stuff for, but as usual I have a good answers for everything. Plus, its my own money. I can decide what I want to do with it.

I've bought more felt supplies, craft books for quilling techniques, curling couch, mini paper shredder for 3mm as I already have 5.8mm shredder, metal hairband for felt product, ribbons and many more. So its all are for my online store and somehow someday it will make some use and maybe bring me more money.

Yours Truly =)

Til next month..

2010-12-17T10:04:00.001+08:00

The monthly awaited meeting was over yesterday.. a very long drive to the place and I sleep like a log last nite and very unwilling to woke up to go to work today.. but off I go.. and now I am sitting on my desk, browsing around for books and crafts tool.. while some work for the next meeting for another project is waiting patiently next to my lappy.. I just want to ignore work for a couple of hours... My brain need break and this is how I do it.. by browsing online store and clicking on the BUY button.. hehehhe...

The most recent buy for craft supply and tools was from my Bestie online shop, Crafty Heart Online Store. I bought 3 set Studio G clear stamps and another set of Acrylic Block. Then I've ordered items from her pre-order item list somewhere early November and its just arrived.. which is another 2 set of clear stamp.. and then, she was kind enough to help me to get few set of border punch from somewhere in Kuching area.. I just love having this new addition of craft tools in my cupboard.. I already have loads of them but I never had enough of it.. There's still few more on the list, and hopefully I can get them this month...

Yours Truly =)

I did something right today

2010-12-15T15:23:00.001+08:00

But why i felt guilty about it... but I am happy that I did this because I can't rest in peace thinking how she cheated others.I was cheated too because I didn't know about it earlier. But when I know about it.. I know I have to do something about it. I can't let my other crafter friends being cheated by her.

The owner of the website took time to scan or capture contains for the e-book and shared them for free and yet this person downloaded them and sell them and took all the benefits. This is totally wrong.

Yours Truly =)

My Precious is sick Again..

2010-12-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

I can' help it but I am feeling very disturbed right now.. I wish I can fly home right now, this time.. I only wish you will be in a very good health soon. Don't forget to pray and remember Allah is there for you...

Yours Truly =)

Work Load

2010-12-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

The workloads is unbearable... lets talk next time... till thursday..

Yours Truly =)

Site Visit

2010-12-10T08:32:00.000+08:00

Here I am in the office so early in the morning. I was here since around 7 am. Just need to check up on some documents and papers. And then soon I am off to visit our site. There's 5 different site to exact to visit today, and they are far apart. Hope I can make it before the rains come down. And in between that, I will have to meet up with few supplier too. Need to order few more stuff in a very large quantity. If i can do this today, tomorrow I'll be free and just watch my favorite TV Series on FOX and SWR... let's hope that I can be wonder woman today...

Yours Truly =)

sore butt...

2010-12-09T19:40:00.001+08:00

My butt is in pain right now because I don't have big and wide and spongy butt like some might have. It was a very long ride. Not that I've never been to the place, but I will always have the same problem every time I went there..I was there for a technical meeting for a thousand times. This time our company was awarded with a eight plus mil project for another two years. Thanks Allah for the this, a non-stop gift from Him. I was only playing around when filling in the form and the BQ for this project. Little that I know that we were chosen instead. Right now, our company has to finished 2 more project of a total of 4 mil by January next year. I am only hoping for the best that all our workers will do their job and not run away back to their hometown. But the real problem is not the workers, its the weather. But it's His Almighty bless for everyone and I am just going to be thankful to Him. There's few more BQ and form to be fill for next year projects. Hopefully we will win it again. Amin. I believe that everyone has their own share on daily livelihood. Its just a matter of being diligent and working hard. I believe now that, If you woke up very early every morning, you will get the result. So stop giving reasons and work your lazy ass. Everyone has their own part and share in everything in the world.

Yours Truly =)

My Salary

2010-12-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

Stop being a baby and grew up. Stop having grudge towards others. Stop complaining and do something about your life. If you are so insecure about me and my other friend, be a good friend to your friend. Not stabbing them in the back or yell at them or scolded them just because you are jealous of them. FYI, my friends and I are really happy without such person like you. Just because we earn more than you and been to some places, you don't have the right to say anything about it. You have to work for it and stop giving reasons. I have been holding this for such a long time and try being nice with you but I think you don't get this. Yes. I earn more than you. My salary now is RM 4K not including my allowance. So you satisfied now that my salary might be double than yours? so, are you going to hold more grudge on me.. its up to you.. I am done being nice and friendly to you... dendo lemok nyaun akal..

Yours Truly =)

Happy 12th Birthday

2010-12-07T08:00:00.002+08:00

Today is my little twin sisters 12th birthday. I still don't believe it that they are this big already. I still think that they are still the little ones that I look after 11 year plus ago. How cute and adorable they have been. How naughty and stubborn and cranky they are. How the played me a thousand tricks. But they are always in my heart, very close.

12 years ago, since my mom was not feeling very well after giving birth to both of them. I am the one who is responsible to took a good care of the twin. I have no much experience other than making milk, changing diapers and mayb feed the little brother that we have before them. So I am out of nowhere, have to do all the chores for both of the twin sisters. Bath them, cloth them and everything involving a baby. It was very tiring but watching them sleep silently and soundly makes me happy and satisfied with myself. I was just finishing my high school that time or to be exact I am just a 17 years old girl who wanted to have fun but end up baby-sitting her two very small little sisters.

But I never regret doing that for them because they grew up perfectly, very kind and intelligent. Here's for you my little sisters. I will always love you both. And have a wonderful birthday. sorry I can't be there for you both. Love you..

Yours Truly =)

myfreakydolls GiveAway

2010-12-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

My very first time joining giveaway.. wish me luck... what's more interesting about this giveaway other than the prize, the closing date is my 30th birthday.. ooo I am getting older...

Interested? Click here

Your Truly =)

I cannot take it anymore

2010-12-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

i really can't it anymore.. i am about to explode... i am going to kill you when i see you.. biatch..

Yours Truly =)

berhenti

2010-11-29T17:01:00.004+08:00

kadang-kadang saya rasa nak berhenti blogging jer sebab rasanya xde org yang baca blog saya.. tp saya xde tempat pulak nak luah perasaan.. apa yang patut saya buat??

Yours Truly =)

The Dream....

2010-11-25T10:29:00.003+08:00

is still very far from me. There'a a giant mountain to climb in front of me. With no one behind and only myself.

Cartoon by Dave Walker. Find more cartoons you can freely re-use on your blog at We Blog Cartoons.

Yours Truly =)

Craft Tool

2010-11-24T16:33:00.001+08:00

I have a lot of craft tool already but for now, I am hoping to find this Fringe Scissors in one of the craft store in KL. I doubt that they have it actually. It would be great if I have this scissor because it can cut few lines in 1 go. For now, all i can do it manually cut the lines one by one and its pretty tiring. It would be perfect to have this tool for my quilling project.. so off now to search for it online.

Yours Truly =)

One of my Fav Online Store

2010-11-20T13:43:00.002+08:00

I've always wanted to promote this online store Crafty Heart Online Store, which own by my bestie Debbie. She had open this store way back in Oct 2008. This store provided a very reasonable price for scrapbooking and card making supplies to fellow crafters in Malaysia, particularly to those who doesn't have an easy access to craft stores.

So dear crafters friend or anyone who wanted to try out and challenge your creative side, feel free to come to the store by clicking on this link. Enjoy Shopping.

Yours Truly =)

Launching My Online Craft Store

2010-11-18T12:21:00.003+08:00

I have put aside this dream of mine of opening online craft store, another hobby or passion that I have other than good gadgets, good foods, savings natures, photography and so on. After come to considerations, without any second thought I just launch it. I didn't have such planning actually but if I don't do it now, I might as well never do it. So without any second thought, I just announce it on my FB and here. I know this is a sudden act but I need your supports badly.

So dear friends, feel free to come and visit this online store of mine. there's nothing much there yet but I will put up something new ASAP. Thanks

p.s : you can also find us on Facebook by clicking here

Yours Truly =)

Should I cry or not?

2010-11-16T15:45:00.001+08:00

Life was more difficult right now. With my status as someone wife right now and everything.Our life is and are perfect. Both of us are still learning to accommodate each needs. But we don't have problem with that. But, I kept some secret from him for keeping us from fighting because it involving others, and others is considered as untouchable peoples.Whereby in any situation, I only able to be silent and watch and listen. And be as cool as patient I can be. When I can't take it anymore, I'll cry during my shower or when I am alone. And if I can't let go of it, I'll text my best buddy and talk about life with her. And as usual, she is one of my best listener and adviser. I love you for that Gal, and I really appreciated you for being there for me almost at any time. Only God know how I am coping with this and I am only hoping for this to end soon. I can't continue living life this way. I'll die of this kinds stuff

Yours Truly =)

Breathless...

2010-11-12T16:58:00.001+08:00

I am out of oxygen. Yes I do. Coming back from a very short trip over the weekend doesn't help me to soothe the mind and relax a bit. Even on our way home, I have already received few phone calls regarding works and its still the weekend. Hubby was being nice and charming as usual, he is trying to help me so that I don't think about work over the weekend. We did enjoy the unplanned and short trip though and was hoping that we can make another 1 or 2 trip to a nearby place to unwind this year. Hopefully we can because we both realize that we are at the end of the year and both are going to be busy with work.

The whole week, I was very2 busy with work, meetings, site visits and paperwork. I even work late hours to finish up my 'never going to finish' work and sleep late and woke up very early the next day. I can only sleep for about 3-4 hours max. And u know what will happen if I didn't get me beauty sleep? Yes, I'll be as cranky as I can be. You won't like me if I am cranky. And to make thing worse when I have so many unfinished work, its the time of the month. So you can imagine how cranky I am everyday..

and due to that, I'll be able to go on on my next mission, which is to lose some extra baggage starting from today. I have one and half can to finish and to see the result. Hopefully it will work out. To be losing 3-4kg is a bonus before the year end. And I think its the time I bring out my sauna set to get rid of the extra bulging.

to end this post, feast your eyes with my collection of cactus-es hang over the window. Will definitely add more.. hehehe

Yours Truly =)

Need I say More

2010-11-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

I have no words to explain what I felt right now. I am depressed by my look and sometimes I felt ashamed of it. I used to be a very skinny one (at least) and now I am like double my size before. I am happy with my life and everything except for my weight. I cant help it that I tried so many ways to lose the weight, the extra baggage especially on my tummy. But nothing works. When I tell people that I don't eat much, they always roll their eyes and showing me a face, a face that saying that they didn't believe it. Now I felt like I am looking like the 1st photo. But I didn't want to be like the 2nd photo. Somehow I will have to do something about my weight in order to be a better me. And that will be decided after a couple of weeks because I am still waiting for some news.

Yours Truly =)

Major Headache

2010-11-04T14:43:00.001+08:00

YES. I am having one now. I didn't realize that blogrolling was planning to ceased their services. I have been using them since I started this blog. so now, I need to remember what blog link to be added on my blog again. And, to be honest I can't remember everything. So dear friend, Please leave your blog link here if you happen to read this.. really appreciate that.. very much...

Yours Truly =)

Updating Ver 1.0

2010-10-12T16:53:00.001+08:00

I am currently updating this old blog of mine. Slowly and painfully because its been a very long time that I didn't do anything to its template or blog-roll or anything inside it. So basically am just changing, deleting and adding more link. Adding few gadgets. and still trying to convince myself to change the background but I just can't for now because the background is so explaining myself. So tell me a good reason why should change these one.

Yours Truly =)

...

2010-10-06T17:34:00.001+08:00

life was very busy lately.. I don't have time to enjoy myself really. But then since the 'kaching' is good, I have nothing against it. And without even realizing it, next week I am going back to my hometown. Its a 2 in 1 trip...

On the 15 Oct, we will be at Sandakan town to participate on the 2nd Bird Race Competition. Its our first time here and hopefully it will be a good one. Hopefully we can see many birds species and enjoy the trip because this a trial trip. If its good then we will definitely come back next year. If not, then we decide to try on Sarawak Bird Race. But for sure we will always be in Fraser's Hill Bird Race. Bird-watching was kinda my strong interest when I was in the Uni but then it change because of my final year thesis, which on the flying mammal. So, it was left behind for such a long time. But, meeting my soulmate change everything. He is a real bird watcher, a quick and good one. So I slowly developed the skills again and trying so damn hard to catch up with him. Am only hoping that we gonna have a blast in Sandakan.

We are going back straight to my parents after the race. and gonna spend some quality time with my family. I have no idea yet where to go this time them, but hopefully we can make it to somewhere somehow since its a very short trip that we are making. Hoping next year we can come back more often to visit my family since I am residing here in Peninsular Malaysia already.

So thats for now, til again....

Yours Truly =)

breaking the silence

2010-09-06T15:20:00.001+08:00

I am sorry that I have left this blog of mine for a very long time. I knew that I've promise for a zillion times that I will never abandoned it again. But guess what, I did it again. Not that I am lacking of any issue with my life but because I don't have the internet connection, a proper one install in my own house. Yup, am still waiting for the TM people to get their lazy ass to my house to setup everything.

I have so many to tell but yet time is always jealous of me. Am currently trying to adapt with my new life as someone wife. And working somewhere here too with no experience at all. So am taking baby steps to learn about my job, current job. Other than that, I am busy preparing materials for my online shop, which will be launch very soon. And hopefully it will be a success and a start for everything.

I know I've promise to tell almost everything about my wedding, which is 3 months ago. I will do that as soon as possible. I am really sorry for being unable to keep up with my promises. BUt as for now, am trying my best to do what I can do best...

love you all...

Yours Truly =)

Online Wedding Invitation

2010-05-30T20:34:00.002+08:00

Love fills a moment. A moment fills a lifetime. A lifetime begins eternity.Our eternity begins here,at our wedding and celebration of love, life and commitment..

Please complete our happiness by celebrating our wedding weekend and the reception will take place on the 30th of May 2010 from 7.30 am to 4.00 pm. Bring along your family and loved one.

Kindly spread and share this good news with everyone.

see you on our wedding day and pray for our happiness

for future information, please visit our wedding website at Journey of Love and Life

Yours Truly =)

My Last Post..

2010-05-22T11:38:00.002+08:00

Yes. It could be my last post before I am married to my boyfriend. Not the old one but the new one. Yes, I dumped the old one not long time ago. But that's not important. AS some of you may know, I am getting married next week on the 29th of May, 2010 to Mohd Asrul. Please pray for our happiness and hopefully the reception will goes smoothly.

I have so many stories to tell regarding the preparations and what I've gone thru along it. How I laugh when things were right and perfectly. How I cried when things goes wrong especially when the tailor ruin my wedding dress. How I rush here and there trying to get stuff finish on time and not getting enough rest ans sleep almost everyday. And all of it because I want my wedding day to be perfect the way it is. Not grand but perfect. And perfect means everything to me know.

Only 7 days including today left before my wedding day. I am actually having cold feet, stomachache and mood swing every single seconds. sometimes i felt like I can't wait to be his Mrs.Wifey. sometimes i felt like I made the wrong decision and just want to run away from everything. and most of the time, I can't felt anything. Along the way, we quarrel over small things, talk for hours over the phone about responsibilities and future and many more things. We talk, and laugh, and quarrel over everything because we have both similarity and differences. But most of all are differences. And when I think of the differences, I am scared of starting my life with him. What if we made mistakes? but nothing is uncertain. we only can hope for the best, and the best is yet to come...

Yours Truly =)

Totally not OK

2010-04-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

the wedding is less than 2 months now and I am seriously not OK. what if I made the wrong decision? What if I can't cope with the family and all? there's too many what if and there's too many differences. Will they accept me the way I am someday? Or I'll always be the black sheep? I have no answers to all these and yet I am willing to take the chance. But will I have all the strength to face it?

Yours Truly =)

had a bad day

2010-04-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

and cried non stop thinking about it, and even louder when mr. hubby to be is not helping at all....

Yours Truly =)

43 days to go

2010-04-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

Yup. And I am getting even more nervous. There's still some unfinished work and I am distracted. Plus all my problems remembering tasks, details n numbers. And now with the period pain and stomach cramp. And hopefully all these will be over soon and I'll be able to do more works later. I so need a full body massage...

Yours Truly =)

IS UNSTABLE

2010-04-14T10:44:00.000+08:00

Yup. That's what I felt right now. If anyone told me that wedding would be this stressful, I wouldn't get involve in it. The preparations, money, energy and much more. I can't even talk about it. My brain is tired, my body is exhausted. The sleepless night thinking o finding solutions. The restless day trying to finish up everything. Dear Allah, please give me strength to go thru all this. And hopefully I can find solutions to everything... Amin.

Yours Truly =)

Aku Bengang

2010-04-12T14:24:00.002+08:00

yang teramat sangat. so what if i have the Sabahan slang. I am Sabahan and I am proud of it. Not like you yang sabahan tapi x nak mengaku n bangga sangat because you don't have the slang.. tukar lah IC ko yang 12 tu gi number lain.. bangang betul... suka2 hati jer cakap orang macam rapat dgn aku.. am so sick of this kind of person.. ko ingat ko sapa nak judge2 aku... duit engko sesen pun aku x pernah guna k... you just go fuck yourself and pegi mampus lah... bodoh sial!

Yours Truly =)

Unsuccess Plan

2010-04-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

Today I was supposed to go for my solemnization dress fitting but my tailor SMS me last minute and told me that she can't make it because she had something else to do. How do I felt? Pissed as usual... my wedding is around the corner so of course I want everything to be ready on time... haiyoooo

Yours Truly =)

49 Days to go

2010-04-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

And I'll be someone wife and play the role as Mrs. Wifey.. hehehhehe.. If you ask me how I felt right now, I can't give you the exact answers cause one minute I am fine then another minute I am cracking my head then another minute I'll cry then another minute I'll laugh. No lies here. I am not making up a stories. But usually I only cry in my own room silently or in the toilet when I am bathing. I don't want my brother to hear me crying cause I am sure he'll tell my mom and my mom will call me straight away. That's the last thing I want to happen cause I hate it when my mom start lecturing me. But that's her job lah.. what ever it is, I still love you
very much mommy. You are THE GREATEST MOM in the world except when you are not in the mood..hahhaha.. those who knows my mom knows why I said that she is the greatest mom. She can be very daring, sporting and strict depending on the situation or time and talkative (this explain my liking of talking I guess). And she is easy to be friend with and approving of my friends as long as they knows the way. Ask my BFF if you don't believe me. I might be bias cause she is my mom. We even have our own language when we went for a shopping trip so that the salesgirl will not understand us.

My dad is totally different from her but still very supportive, sporting and easy to talk to. My dad never ever touch me or pinch me since I was born. I am daddy little girl. I used to go everywhere with him. Do fun stuff. Shopping and hide my shopping bags from my mom and my mom however will know about it cause my dad can't shut his mouth or I accidentally bump into her while trying to smuggle it into our house. We went for a badminton or ping pong game cause my dad is so good at these 2 games. I am supposed to be a national player cause its my dad dream but wasn't able too cause my mom doesn't approved. And I adore my daddy so much cause he is THE BESTEST DADDY. And hopefully my future husband will have some of his characters.

In 49 days, I am no longer their responsibility. And I felt sad. But I will always be my daddy little girl and my mummy talkative girl. Because that's I am when I am with them. I Love You Mama and Bapa...

Yours Truly =)

a little bits of here and there

2010-04-08T21:36:00.003+08:00

To be honest, I lost my interest on blogging for months now.. I can't remember my last post, even. I mean the one that came from my heart. Most of the time, I would just ignore all my problems and any stories that I wanted to share rather than blog about it. I've become another person. I developed another person. Which I don't like so much but I don't really have a choice (that time). If u ask me why I did all those things, I don't
have the answers to any of it. But I don't like to share about my life with strangers nowadays. Even with a friends, I don't really talk about it except for my BFF, who has been there most of the time. Maybe being under the same zodiac help us so much in understanding each other. I love to very much, Gal. And I really appreciate everything you've done to me. Thank you for being there for me. And I hope our relationship will stay forever. My marriage doesn't change anything except my status, But I will be there for you when U need me.

Talking about work. My new job putting me into another level of life. I use to deal with animals who doesn't answers, or me give me such faces, and now I am dealing with human being who gave me such face and answers me. The most that I can't dealt with is REJECTIONS. one after another. It kept me down for days and even weeks. Come on lah guys, I am still new. Just give me a chance to prove it to you. However, I only hope for the best. Hopefully I can retire early and concentrating on my online business soon.

My wedding day is just another 50 days. Am not counting on it cause I have the online wedding countdown application installed on my Facebook account. I can't wait to start a new life. And hopefully this one will work out well than before. The new chapter of my life will begin soon and i only hope for the best of us...

til again

Yours Truly =)

W.O.R.R.I.E.D

2010-03-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

And emotionally unstable right now... I am worried about everything's.. what if I can't do it and make it? there's to many What If and What Will and etc etc.. I hate having uncertainties at this stage of my life.. Please God, take this feeling away from me and provide me the secure feelings again...

Yours Truly =)

Lalalalala

2010-02-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

My heart sings happily.. waiting for the event.. the biggest event in my life.. a new chapter a new life.. and I can't stop smiling thinking of it..

Yours Truly =)

OK or NOT?

2010-02-12T04:42:00.003+08:00

If u asked me whether I am OK or not? my answer will be something telling you that I am OK, but I am not. I am living with all the pain in my heart. No one knows how I felt and how I dealt with it. You destroy my future in a second, you kill my dreams just by blinking. Everything's changed because of you. And I am the one who is dealing with all the pain while you enjoying every single seconds of you life. You so-called fake life.
I am not asking anything from God but for Him to make you pay for what you did, now and FOREVER. You'll be haunted by your past your whole life and I am always there with those dirty little secrets. Yes! The Secret! I am not threatening but this is the truth and I can't hold the truth forever. If anyone ask, I might just tell the truth about you. There's no more backing up, no more telling lies. I had enough of those stupidity. Now I let someone else to handle the stupidity while I am moving on with life and live happily til my last breath. I never regret my decision about you, not a single seconds cause I know I made the right one, The MOst Right Ever my whole life...

Yours Truly =)

felt like bitching..

2010-01-28T02:34:00.002+08:00

YES!! thats what i felt rite now.. do want to know more? 1001 days is not enough for me to bitch from one topics to another. I am bored with some people and i pity thesee people. who they are.. let me tell one by one on my next entry. If you want their full name, let me know so I can put it up here. But for sure, I am saying goodbye to those unrelated, unimportant, unsignificant and who doesn't matter at all with my life and those so called friends. GOODBYE!!

Yours Truly =)

Untuk yang bernama...WANITA - copy from Melly

2009-12-17T03:07:00.000+08:00

"Ketika aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa.

"Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya
untuk melindungi hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu "

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk diteteskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan pada waktu bila pun ia diperlukan."

"Kau LELAKI tahu...
Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,
susuk badan yang ditampilkan, atau bilaman ia menyisirkan rambutnya."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, karena itulah pintu hatinya - tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

Yours Truly =)

L.O.S.T.

2009-12-16T01:19:00.002+08:00

That's what I felt right now.. Have you??? how did you find your way back.. how did you heal.. how did you deal with it... Should I or shouldn't I?? *sigh*

Yours Truly =)

On the Move

2009-06-28T14:30:00.002+08:00

My research back at Kuala Krau, Pahang is due anytime. Once I am finish its mean that I will move back to KL permanently for a few months. This is cuz I will have to do the data analysis and writing for my thesis. Its a good thing at the same time cuz its mean that I am going to finish my study very2 soon and yet....... only God knows why!! I am still not sure whether my application to be transfered to KL permanently to my boss is accepted or not. But I do hope I will...

Another trouble is finding a new house. All this while I was staying at my brother's house. I wanted to get my own since I am here back in 2007 but he didn't allow me. But now I have better reason cuz he's married and he got to live his own life now. He doesn't need me to do the household chores for him anymore. but, I can't just let him on his own. I will still do my responsibility as his sister. I will do come back and check up on him and his wife. He is still my family after all. Finding a new house in KL area is not easy, finding a roomate is not easy as well. You might get what you want, a happy set of roomate and housemate or the Grumpy Old-Nanny. So, Debbie.. here is the option. Do you want to move in with me? hahahhahha...

Anyway, I'll talk more on this on the nexy post. I still have a lot in mind but still not sure about it. Till then...

Yours Truly =)

Update : for the silent months

2009-06-26T11:29:00.005+08:00

I am sorry that I didn't manage to update this blog of mine frequently.Still very busy with my MSc because I am a bit behind the schedule. BUt I promise that once I am done, I'll be back to this blogging world again.

Here are some of the update;

Was back to my hometown last month for my brother's wedding. He was the first one in my siblings to get married. And guess what, the guests during the wedding is more than 4 thousand. We were so damn tired for working non-stop in order to make sure that the wedding runs perfectly. But we had fun too. will try to upload the photos next time as I am using someone laptop right now.

Last week I was at Fraser's Hill, doing the International Bird Race. Its the first time that I join it. I do have fun but somehow I am not satisfied on how they categorize the participants. Come on guys, I am a novice. I've never join the event before. Even if I am working with a wildlife conservation based company, it doesn't mean that I am an expert for every single animals. If I knew that this gonna be like that, i'll ID more and work harder. Bu I was there only to have fun, but yet you guys destroy the fun part. Bu I'll come back again next year. And this time if you put in me the advance group again, I'll fight for the prize. I'll do more work. I'll ID more birds. You watch me doing it.

Yesterday, I was at the University. Presenting part of my MSc research results. I was so nervous because to me my result haven't shows anything clearly. But at least I realize that and understand my research very well. It turn out that my presentation was better than some of the PhD students. Come on guys, you choose the research and yet you don't know why you do it.. why do PhD at the firts place? So I am quite satisfied with my research and presentation. My supervisor is happy too. I know he is proud of me because I know that I have some quality that some people didn't want to realize it and take me for granted. I can be very weak but when I found my strength, no one can defeat me. Believe me.

Anyway, I am heading back to the research centre soon. Will loook forward to update again next time. I am so losing my blogging skills here. I can't even write well anymore... this could be the lamest post ever... Hahahhaha

Yours Truly =)

Home.. Here I come

2009-04-27T15:09:00.002+08:00

Will be going home for a short trip.. its my brother's wedding. I can't wait to go home. I miss my siblings and my mum and my dad and my grandmas... And the home cooked meal. Gosh! I miss everything about home.. But its gonna be a real pain in my heart too cuz I know everyone will probably ask 1 question. which is WHEN IS MY TURN TO GET MARRIED??? shitty lah like this. I am gonna screw those who ask me that particular question and tear them apart... HAHAHAHHA..

However, I am looking forward going back home. The last time I went back is during the Raya. Thats few months back.. Off now, need to get few stuff to bring home...

Yours Truly =)

Breaking the Silence

2009-04-15T11:38:00.002+08:00

Dear Friends,

I am sorry for the long silence. I know some of you are and still waiting for my updates. And again I am sorry for that. I am just going thru some difficult phase in life and handling it now. Don't worry too much cause I am gonna be fine. I hope. And thanks for being there when I needed you the most. You know who you are, dear friends. Love you all.

Yours Truly =)

SEPI

2009-01-15T22:10:00.001+08:00

Bisikku pada bulan..
Kembalikan temanku..
Kekasihku..
Syurgaku..
Tanpa dia malam menemaniku..
Sepi memelukku..
Bulan jangan biar siang..
Biar alam ni kelam..
Biar ia sepi sepertiku.

Yours Truly =)

My Birthday was 4 days ago..

2009-01-14T08:36:00.003+08:00

And I am celebrating it alone in my rented house somewhere in Pahang. And I think this is the first time I've celebrating it alone.

Yours Truly =)

Family Affairs

2008-11-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

My family is coming to KL tomorrow. The whole family. So I am gonna be quite busy entertaining them. And having my own cuti-cuti Malaysia as well. I hope after the holidays everything will be back to normal. No more miserable me, no more super sensitive me, no more fragile me but only the old me. OMG! I missed the old me. The one who use to have fun and laugh and just enjoying my life. But when the new me emerged from somewhere, I've become someone else. I am not so fun anymore. I am not so happy anymore. And now I just didn't want to put the blame to anyone.

back to the main topic, I am not quite sure whee we are heading. Bt it would be all around Peninsular Malaysia for sure. So, I am looking forward for them to come. Cheers everyone, I am going off to KL.

Yours Truly =)

To all My Best Girls

2008-11-20T10:02:00.000+08:00

When the world made no sense
When the gravity was pulling me way down
When living & breathing was such a burden to me
Never once you went away
Never once you let me go astray
And for that I thank thee
For this friendship eternally
For being that driving force
The strong inspiring source
For making me wanting to live
For making me wanting to believe
That world isn't such a bad place
When I’m so blessed with your grace

p.s : Found it from someone blog. Thanks to her.

Yours Truly =)

Am I Happy???

2008-11-19T09:22:00.003+08:00

As corny as it may sound, I am happy with my life now. I am not bothered by whatever happens for the past few months or weeks or days. For what ever dramas or gossips or scandals or politics, and everything. I learnt to let go and by letting go I am more happier than ever. I learnt not to think about it like I use too only to find answers to all my questions, all the uncertainties. And sadly never found it. I learnt to just go with the flow and I am happier by day. And I am looking forward for whatever may happen. Life is an amazing gift, and I am holding into that. Love is something mysterious, and I am not putting any hope to it anymore. If I can be happy by being single, let it be. If I can do and achieve my dreams by being single, I welcome it into my life. Marriage is so overrated. So does other stuff. What important now is I cherish every moments that I have and live my life the way I wanted it to be.

I am not perfect even to some of my friends I am are. I have my ups and downs. I have flaws. And I am not afraid to admit that. I am just another human being. And of course human do lots of mistakes in their life. But I decided not to talk about it, about other human being because I might do the same thing in my past or in the future. Take an example, when we are talking about controlling our other half. Define control. Is control and concern the same thing or not? When you asked, is it controlling or just concerned? Do the maths and go figure. Don't simply blame other people for whatever they did if you are one before, and when you did even worst. When you stick around and clung to your other half 24-7 and you are not even married yet. I felt like laughing at this kind of person. OMG! what was I am talking here. This is so out of the topic.

But, I am happier. For whatever it is. I know I will have to choose on what to do with my life. To go on with what I have plan years ago or make new plan. Its my life that I am gambling with. And whatever the consequences, I am the one who will face it. Not you and not anyone.

Yours Truly =)

Go Figure!!

2008-11-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

Person A : Yes, she have feelings for him. But If he didn't started it, She will not have any feelings. I don't know whats going on with him cause he looks stupid to me now that he didn't know what he wants in his life. Ask him whether he want to continue with you or just with his life. Because I didn't see that Person B is disturbing him. She is my bestfriend, I know her for quite some time already. And I told her to leave him alone. Which she did. She will not try to steal other girl boyfriend.

Person B: Don't blame him. Blame me. I swear that I didn't have any feelings towards him. He didn't know anything. I am sorry that I post the entry about him which is obviously showing my feelings towards him when he left. I changed my phone number already. And I will leave him alone for you. Please be there for him. He needs you. And he will never leave you. I got secret to tell you that no one knows about, I have a fiance. And I will get a new job with his help.

Person C : I didn't do anything. I didn't even know what you guys are saying. Why Person A said that? I didn't seduce or flirt with Person B.

So, go figure... Who to trust and who is not. The puzzle is yours to solve. Good Luck!! Btw, its just a puzzle. It has nothing to do with anyone..

Yours Truly =)

.....

2008-11-11T11:52:00.003+08:00

I never thought that you would do this to me. Why on earth you do this to me. What have I done wrong to you. I have been there for you, supporting you,loving you,care for you and do almost everything you asked me too. But this is what I got. No wonder you change so much. No wonder you don't have time for me. No wonder all these things happen. You cheated on me and I am too blind to see. Thanks for everything. I am leaving you now...

Yours Truly =)

I am Sorry That I am Not Perfect...

2008-11-02T16:15:00.001+08:00

This is for you, if you read this. I am sorry that I am not what you think I am.. I am just human and I do lots of mistakes.. And again, I am sorry for this.

p.s : sorry that I didn't update any latest news for the past few weeks. I don't feel like blogging anymore, for the time being

p.p.s: I will try to blog more next time when I am back to the normal mode

p.p.p.s: Thanks to my dear friends who have been there for me

Yours Truly =)

How I spent my first 24 HOurs At Home...

2008-09-28T09:48:00.005+08:00

Sleep the whole day.... hehehhe.. I am tired what. Driving all the way from Pahang and search for some stuff in KL, the sleepless night and 2 hours plus in the plane and the driving back home... SO I deserve to catch up with my sleep.

Then the next hours is spent with my siblings, cleaning up my late beloved grandpa house. This house seems so big when I am small. Now, it seem smaller. Not that the house shrink, but I grew up. Its a 20 years old family house and my siblings and I get to clean this house every year, especially during the Raya Celebration. Not the others. The others will only show up when everything is done. Yup. When everything are DONE. Not that I am complaining, but if everyone is here and helping, the workload is less and easy. And we can finish it on time. BUt who Am I to complaint.. hehehhe..

Raya is just 2 days away. But I didn't felt anything. Maybe because I grew up and Raya become nothing special to me anymore. I remember, during my childhood. Raya is one of the most waited celebration. Because I get to see and enjoy myself with all my cousins. We did a lots of things together. But as everyone grew older, we seems to be drifted apart. And I don't know why. Everyone is going their own way. *sigh*... how I miss those time. And again, who Am I to compliant..

Anyway, I am not sure whether I will be able to online and update this blog for the next few days. So here it is... I would like to wish everyone 'SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN' ... lets just do what we have to do... cheers

Yours Truly =)

Raya Holidays

2008-09-23T00:46:00.001+08:00

The Celebration of Hari Raya is 8 days away and I will be back to my hometown in 3 days. Do I get excited? Yes and No. Yes because I am going home, at last. Means I will get to rest from doing what I am doing right now. And I seriously need that. Rest and to be able to enjoy myself at home. Its been a long time time that I didn't really spend my time with my family. The last time that I went back,which is in July is just for 4 days and I didn't really get to enjoy it because I was very sick that time. My Sinus plus migraine took it all. I was bedridden for all the time. I have been staying away from my family for the past 17 years. My secondary education was spent living in a boarding school, So I will be only back to home when its the school holidays. And sometimes, I didn't even get to spent enough time at home cause I was involved with sports and school-tuition. As one of the most privilege school back in Sabah, we have to study smart to keep up with the result. Finishing my secondary school, I was in the matriculation and again away from home. My first degree also was spent away from home and I don't really get to go back home due to my field trips. So, away I was most of the time. When I started working and being workaholic, I too spent my time doing my work. Believe me I still have almost 2 months leave cause I hardly take any leave. Trust me cause that was the truth.

I would say NO cause every time I am planning for a holiday, it is the time when some of the figs that I need to collect and samples is fruiting and ripen. Just right on time when I am not around. It got me frustrated because there is nothing I can do about it. I just hope that there is still many left over when I came back after the Raya Holidays. Finger cross. Lets be positive on this one. Please please...

Talk to him today, he told me that he got an offer from one company. Which is based in KL. If he accept the offer, he will be in KL for few months for the training and will travel overseas after that. The money is good, good enough for him compared to the current job. But he is not very sure about the job prospect. So I told him not to rush on deciding because he is still waiting for another one, which he was interviewed last week. Informal one of course. This one, the job prospect is very clear. It is something that he knew all the way. But the money might not be as good as the other one. Whatever he decide, I will support it. As long as he is happy. That's enough for me. Seeing him happy. What more can I ask right. I know that we have been thru a lot lately. We were in a very rough time, and we didn't now what the best for the relationship. What the best for us? There's to many uncertainties, too many unanswered questions. So, we put it on hold and see what gonna happen. I wanted to concentrate on my study and he's on his career. Whatever the best for each of us. Just pray for us. if it is meant to be,then it will. If it is not, we will accept it and become good friend. What more can I ask, I am lucky enough to have what I have now. Life that the others would die for, and I thanks God for all the good things.

Logging off.. I need my beauty sleep. I haven't pack anything. I am leaving to KL tommorow before going back to Sabah. Till then....

Yours Truly =)

The Current Status

2008-09-15T18:11:00.001+08:00

The current status for the relationship is still on hold. It could be anything. There is always a way for every problems. To all my dear friends, Don't worry. I am doing okay. He is too. We just have to discuss this more. Pros and cons. We both didn't want to hurt any of us anymore. Just wish us luck. Whatever might happen, we will accept it.

Yours Truly =)

Birthday Calculator

2008-09-15T09:36:00.004+08:00

Found this website thru other web blog. It will calculate your birthday. All you have to do is go to the website and enter your birthdate. As simple as that. So here is the result.

The Result:

Your date of conception was on or about 19 April 1980 which was a Saturday.

You were born on a Saturday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 3.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Smiling often can make you look and feel younger.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444614.5.
The golden number for 1981 is 6.
The epact number for 1981 is 24.
The year 1981 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/16/1980 and ending 2/4/1981.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Monkey.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 5 Shevat 5741.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 6 Shevat 5741.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.7.10.10 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 7 tun 10 uinal 10 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Saturday, 4 Rabi'u'l-Avval 1401 (1401-3-4).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1981.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 April 1981.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 4 March 1981.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1981.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1981.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 29 September 1981.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Sunday, 19 April 1981.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1981.

As of 9/14/2008 12:23:44 PM EDT
You are 27 years old.
You are 332 months old.
You are 1,445 weeks old.
You are 10,109 days old.
You are 242,628 hours old.
You are 14,557,703 minutes old.
You are 873,462,224 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Pat Benatar (1953)	George Foreman (1949)	Rod Stewart (1945)
Sal Mineo (1939)	Gisele MacKenzie (1927)	Johnnie Ray (1927)
Paul Henreid (1908)	Ray Bolger (1904)	Grigori Rasputin (1869)

Top songs of 1981

Physical by Olivia Newton-John	Bette Davis Eyes by Kim Carnes
Endless Love by Diana Ross & Lionel Richie	Arthur's Theme by Christopher Cross
Kiss On My List by Daryl Hall & John Oates	Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield
I Love a Rainy Night by Eddie Rabbitt	9 to 5 by Dolly Parton
Private Eyes by Daryl Hall & John Oates	Rapture by Blondie

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.95655577299413 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 118 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 28 candles.

Those 28 candles produce 28 BTUs,
or 7,056 calories of heat (that's only 7.0560 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.20 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1981 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1981 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1981 in the US there were 2,438,000 marriages (10.6%) and 1,219,000 divorces (5.3%)
In 1981 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1981 the population of Australia was approximately 15,054,117.
In 1981 there were approximately 235,842 births in Australia.
In 1981 in Australia there were approximately 113,905 marriages and 41,412 divorces.
In 1981 in Australia there were approximately 109,003 deaths.

Your birthstone is Garnet

The Mystical properties of Garnet

Garnet is used as a power stone

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Emerald, Rose Quartz

Your birth tree is

Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

There are 102 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 115 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were born was waxing crescent.

THE LIFE PATH

The Life Path 3 indicates that you entered this plane with a strong sense of creativity and with wonderful communication skills. Achievement for you most likely comes through engaging your ingenious expression. A truly gifted 3 possesses the most exceptional innovative skills, normally in the verbal realm, writing, speaking, acting, or similar endeavors. Here we are apt to find the entertainers of the world, bright, effervescent, sparkling people with very optimistic attitudes. The bright side of this path stresses harmony, beauty and pleasures; of sharing your inventive talents with the world. Capturing your capability in creative self-expression is the highest level of attainment for this life path.

Life is generally lived to the fullest, often without much worry about tomorrow. You are not very good at handling money because of a general lack of concern about it. You spend it when you have it and don't when you don't.

The 3 loves connecting with people. The characteristics of the 3 are warmth and friendliness, a good conversationalist, social and open. A good talker both from the standpoint of being a delight to listen to, but even more importantly, one who has the ability to listen to others. Accordingly, the life path 3 produces individuals who are always a welcome addition to any social situation and know how to make others feel at home. The approach to life tends to be exceedingly positive. Your disposition is almost surely sunny and openhearted. A happy and often inspired person, you are constantly seeking and needing the stimuli of similar people.

There is a remote side to your 3 Life Path, as well. This comes as a surprise to the native and to those who think they are well acquainted. The 3 is actually a very sensitive soul. When hurt, you can easily retreat to a shell of morose silence for extended periods. Nonetheless, the 3 eventually copes with all of the many setbacks that occur in life and readily bounces back for more. It is usually easy for you to deal with problems because you can freely admit the existence of problems without letting them get you down for too long. Because of your own sensitivity to hurt, you have a caring disposition and seem to be very conscious of other people's feelings and emotions.

In romance, the 3 is a very ardent and loyal lover. Affairs that don't go well can leave scares that seem to linger. Emotional experiences of all sorts tend to deeply touch the 3 and the drama may take some time to play out. Regrettably, the giving disposition of the 3 often attracts demanding partners. As with most of life's issues for the 3 Life Path, balance in relationships is illusive.

Your big test with a 3 Life Path is controlling your highs and lows. You won't survive very well in any routine environment or when you are placed under dominating management. Slow thinking and overly contemplative people tend to frustrate you, and you don't function too well with this type whether you are working for, with, or under them. Your exuberant nature can take you far, especially if you are ever able to focus your energies and talents.

For the few living on the negative side of this Life Path, a 3 may be so delighted with the joy of living that the life becomes frivolous and superficial. You may scatter your abilities and express little sense of purpose. The 3 can be an enigma, for no apparent reason you may become moody and tend to retreat. Escapist tendencies are not uncommon with the 3 life path, and you find it very hard to settle into one place or one position. Guard against being critical of others, impatient, intolerant, or overly optimistic.

Yours Truly =)

Emptiness

2008-09-06T10:52:00.001+08:00

There's a big hole in my heart and i dunno how to avoid it... there's a loneliness in there but i dunno what i am suppose to do with it... I guess I just have to live with it.. I am such a FAILURE.

Yours Truly =)

Boo Is A Car

2008-08-25T16:05:00.005+08:00

Okay.. I might confused some people or readers of my blog for the past few weeks.. SO here is the explanation on who is TED or now known as BOO...

I bought a new car few weeks back actually.. I have been meaning to keep it as a secret by using his name in here.. Yes! Its a male okay... Hhehehhe... Some of my friend know that I named almost every stuff that I have except for my books.. MY laptop is Chad, my Sony PSP is Murray, My soft toys are MB, Mili, Gogon, Tiga, Luva, Munyit etc etc...

Back to the main subject, So my previous car name is Buzz, and I still have Buzz till now. Its just that I leave it in KL with my brother. He's looking after Buzz and I will still drive Buzz if I am in KL... So now the new car name is BOO.. At first, I named him as TED, but one of my close friend told me that my boss cute little name back at his home is TED.. So I don't want my car to use the same name even I like the name Very-Very much.. then I decided to change his name to BOO... after considering other name.. i know it doesn't sound like manly enough,but who cares..

So my dear friends, I do hope that this will clarify who is Boo or Ted... hehehhe..

Yours Truly =)

I Found The Name

2008-08-24T01:50:00.003+08:00

From Now On.. Ted is no Longer named as TED.. From now On.. He is Boo... Boo... hehehhe... Cuz Boo sound so him right now... SO goodbye TED, welcome BOO... hehehhe

Yours Truly =)

I need New Name For TED

2008-08-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

BTW, I need to change TED name... I found out today that TED is my boss cute little name at home.. And I don't realize that.. So I am changing TED name to something else... Now, I am browsing for names and haven't found one that I think will suit Ted... Poor Ted! I am liking the name so much but now I need to rename Ted... So if anyone have any name in mind,please share with me... Btw, Ted is a Ebony Black MyVi...

Yours Truly =)

Ermmm...

2008-08-20T12:00:00.003+08:00

What a woman do when she missed someone badly ???
What a woman be when she is so miserable and lonely ???
What a woman do when she wanted her life to be better but she is confused at the same time ???
What a woman be when she wanted to be happy but crying at the same time ???
What a woman do when she needed that someone to be there but nowhere to be found ???

Yours Truly =)

DAMN YOU CATS!!!

2008-08-15T18:14:00.004+08:00

DAmn you cats! you hurt my Ted. I will hunt you down, I don't care. Ted is merely 2 week and you already do something to his body.. If I knew which one is you, I'll hang you! Stupid Bloody Cats... SIalan...

Yours Truly =)

Positive

2008-08-14T22:02:00.003+08:00

*edited

Keep think positively.. and I am a little bit happier by day.. Keep the head straight no matter how difficult the situation are.. Sing to my own song in my special way.. and cried if I had too.. and dance to the music... and nag my friends about it (You know who you are- Thanks a lot, you guys are my star)... And don't forget to dream with your heart... LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH AND BE HAPPY!!!

*Song List for the Time being*
1. I am Yours -Jason Mraz
2. Sempurna - Andra and the backbone
3. Natasha Beddingfield - Soulmate
4. I'll Do Anything -Jason Mraz
5. A moment Like this - Leona Lewis
and list go on... to many to list down (to lazy actually)

Yours Truly =)
...

30th days

2008-08-13T11:13:00.001+08:00

Daniel : I guess we are the left overs in this world.

Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons
left in this world without any special someone in our lives.

Daniel : Yup! I don't know what to do.

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine : I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.

Daniel : That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..

DAY 1:
They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared
and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..

DAY 14:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: 'My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily.' Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something .

DAY 28:
They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.

DAY 29:

11:37 pm
Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game ...

Daniel : I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go
down the road..

Jasmine : Apple juice would be fine,thanks.

Daniel: Wait for me...

20 minutes later ... a stranger approached Jasmine.

Stranger : Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine : Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital .

11:57pm

The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.

Doctor : We found this in Daniel's pocket.

Jasmine read the letter which says:

Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine...

Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..

'Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me

Then the clock strikes 12

Daniel's heart stop pumping

THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...

Yours Truly =)

'Ted' First Service

2008-08-12T18:22:00.004+08:00

Ted went to the service center today,for the first service.. so now I am officially off the 80km/hours limit.. I can speed up.. I can be back to me.. Hahahha...

___________________________________________________________________

This is out of the topic... lets forget Ted. This is for my best girl.. Debbie. Her beloved grandpa passed away today at 6pm. Lets pray together so that the grandpa rest in peace. Debs girl, Be strong K. I know you can pass thru this. You know you can always count on me if you need anything. A shoulder to cry on or maybe to nag or whatever i can help you with. I have been thru this and I cannot say that I understand how you felt because its different for everyone. Be strong okay. I know you can do this...

Yours Truly =)

08.08.08 Lucky Number???

2008-08-08T14:02:00.000+08:00

Not at all. Why? Cause I got ticket from the traffic... grrrrrrr

Yours Truly =)

My 'Ted' is Here

2008-08-07T22:55:00.003+08:00

*edited*

Finally... after all the trouble.. few months of waiting.. he is here.. TED is here... And I am loving every inch of Ted body and soul.. I hope the new life and journey with Ted will be bless.. I love you So much Ted! You make me head over heels already.. and I am looking forward to create some memories with you... XOXO..

I am sorry that I have to leave you behind Buzz.. You know that I still love you.. very much.. You are my first love.. And you always will be.. I promise that I will come and visit you soon and more often.. I can't have you both here.. So,leaving you behind with someone who can look after you is the best choice that I have.. And the life and journey with you was and is wonderful and full of memories.. You know that right.. So don't go sulking on me anymore okay.. I know how its felt.. XOXO

Yours Truly =)

I need To Re-arrange My Life (Badly)

2008-08-06T00:36:00.002+08:00

I was in the other world most of the time now.. I wasn't myself lately.. I can considered myself in the dark world for the past few weeks.. So now, I need to wake up and rearrange every single things in my life.. I need to wake up and back to my old self... I just hate me now.. So here come the list..

URGENT;
1. Clear up the house ( re-arrange stuff and throw away whatever is not necessary)
2. Update my Online Life frequently (So many net friends that I didn't even know which one is real and which one is not. So many on the net but not in real life.. Dayyem! That's suxx) - Or should I abandon the Net life... errmmm, that's something to think
3. Update my MSc data and writing (OMG!! I am behind the schedule again)
4. I kinda forgot already.. There was so many in my mind before I was typing this and now I forgot everythings.. I guess I will update this later

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I missed my life in Kuching.. Even I don't have that many friends down there (here is not bad too), but I get to do lots of things. I can go clubbing or play pool with my friends. We do futsal every other night. Lepaking at the Waterfront. I know Kuching is boring but at least I had more life in Kuching than here. I missed it badly. And I wish I am back to Kuching and enjoy my life there and the joy of doing things that I do inKuching is purely from the heart. I missed the night out. I miss the futsal court. I miss going to the club. I miss eating the food. I miss the adrenaline of being in Kuching... Gosh ! I need my life back.... Even I can shop for books here cause the choice is wayyyyyyyyyyy much more better than in Kuching and I got better choice.. but still, I do missed the old me. The fun-loving-adventurous-crazy-cool-outgoing-chic! now I am just the bored-to-death-and-desperately-need-to finish-my-MSc-and-no-fun-life! HUH!!!

Yours Truly =)

....

2008-07-22T17:56:00.004+08:00

And a Photographer to take the photo... Ya I know.. I am a little over to do this but who cares.. I love the little Piglet as much as her parents do.. okay might be a little less.. but I do love her.. with all my heart...

p.s : You do know that kan Little Piglet...

Yours Truly =)

Sad World

2008-07-18T22:41:00.003+08:00

I've never felt soooooo lonely but tonight.. suddenly I realize that I was going everywhere alone... Alone all the time except when I am in Miri or Kuching or when I am at the KJ office or somewhere I don't remember.. but most of it, I was and are alone.. Lone ranger.. Was it because I choose who I be friend with or maybe because of my work nature? I don't know... I felt so sad that I didn't even touch my OldTown Famous Mee Curry... *sigh*

Yours Truly =)

The Photos

2008-07-11T11:22:00.005+08:00

Photos were taken during the Cherating trip But this is not exactly in Cherating. Its somewhere in the Kuala Kemaman area (if I am not mistaken). We were looking for the best Otak-otak and Satar and we found it. And then we just decided to follow the road till the end of it.. and here I was, taking some photos with the new toy... So you tell me, was it good or was it bad... please be honest as your comments can help me improve my shooting skills.. who knows I might quit the current job and become pro.. I could be your wedding or any ceremony official photographer with discount... hehehhe
Yours Truly =)

The Long Silence is Broken... Lalalalla

2008-07-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

I know I have been very quiet lately.. I know I have ignored the blogging world.. Its not that I stop doing it completely,its just that I am taking some break from the blogging world and hoping when I came back it would be better.. but after hibernating for few weeks, it doesn't improved.. it is still the old same blog of mine..

My life is still and are the same.. there is too many obstacles to my MSc but I keep going on... And keep the brave and positive face and attitude... as if nothing happen.. I keep going on and on and on... Not that I am complaining and keep complaining until some of you might get bored cause every visits and new post is about my frustration over the project... I keep some to myself and some doesn't mean few... hehhehe

I went to Cherating too last month with some friends... Two guy in a same world as mine.. the conservationist.. who say we conservationist doesn't know how to enjoy.. tell me who??? it was unplanned.. and yet we had fun.. i guess it was because of the company... we didn't go to many place but enjoying each other company... and i took some photos too... and eat most of the time... But Cherating wasn't what we expected.. we expect more than what we had that time.. It was dying... sad but true....

And didn't I told you that I went to Taman Negara earlier last month... It was fantastic as what was aired... It was unplanned trip too.. we were heading to gt our late lunch and Taman Negara was come out suddenly and one of us was joking about going to Taman Negara.. And then Taman Negara it was... hehhehhe... Too bad that I didn't have my camera with me that time.. the memories remain in the heart....

And did you guys know that I am heading back to Miri tomorrow... Yay!.. Yes!! I am heading back to Miri.. See you Miri People!!!

Yours Truly =)

4th T4T Jenderak Selatan

2008-07-04T14:31:00.003+08:00

Yours Truly =)

Another Bad Excuses

2008-06-26T11:16:00.001+08:00

I have been meaning to upload the workshop photos right after it was over, which is few days ago.. But I couldn't keep up with the promise as I am very sick now... and I am still sick.. its my Sinus and its getting even worse... And because I am the overwork-underpaid MSc student (this is my doctor statement K)... BUt once I am back on track, I will upload it.. So please be patient and do come again to my blog.. till then... I need my sleep.. the pills is taking over my life

Yours Truly =)

4th T4T workshop

2008-06-16T12:58:00.001+08:00

Dear friends,
I will be busy for the next few days.. its the 4th Teachers For Tigers workshop.. will upload the photos when everything is over.. till then

Yours Truly =)

My New Toy

2008-06-14T11:48:00.002+08:00

Yes! I have a new toy.. My Nikon D80.. and its a DSLR Camera.. I've tried taking photos with it and I am satisfied.. Even the price is making a big hole in my pocket, I don't mind anymore.. I am just happy and happy that I bought it... So,let me do my thing now.. playing with the new toy... hehehhe

Yours Truly =)

Breaking the Silence

2008-06-06T15:02:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the long silence... I have been busy and fighting with my own feeling and self.. I am coping with all the accident and disaster and I hope nothing else will come after this... so, till then... will update more often.. I promise..

Yours Truly =)

SO This is Another Challenging Part of My MSc or What??

2008-05-26T19:11:00.014+08:00

Few days ago.. I was the most happiest girl in the world.. The bad weather has improved.. no rain but hot sunny day... So this is the right time to build the portable bat flight cage again.. so here I go, rebuild the cage with my assistant....

Here is the cage frame or backbone..

And then we bring on the flight cage cover, with help of the officer in my research site

And we have one complete portable bat flight cage ready to be use and occupy anytime soon by the lucky bats

And then today.. God or whoever or whatever decided to challenged me again by doing this... Its hurt me so deep and I felt like crying outloud and shout and yell and kick some stupid arse...

The collapsed portable bat flight cage

And the broken upper side of the cage- which is bending to the soil level

And then this broke my heart even more

And this makes my heart shattered into pieces that nothing can mend it for the time being

So tell me why I am not a broken hearted right now... First is the flood in December 2007.. And then the not enough,no fruit to be collected and samples... And then the long-wait of the portable cage,it takes months to be ready... Then the bad weather.... And now this!...

Yours Truly =)

United Rocks

2008-05-23T15:59:00.001+08:00

We won.. and thats the end of it! Chelsea fans out there.. accept it already okay...

p.s : Be Right Back... Still got important works to do....

Yours Truly =)

I am A Free Girl....

2008-05-19T19:46:00.003+08:00

For the time being... I just come back from the nearest town to send her off.. yippee! I am gonna have my house for MYSELF.. I am loving it... hahhahaha.. so now I can walk naked in this house.. I can wear less clothes if I want to.. I can pretty do what ever I wanna do... HAhahhaha.. I am a happy girl now.... And I am even happier cause I received few MMS from Tyler Piglet's dad today.. one of it, is a photo of her holding her own milk bottle. She's 3 months now and she pretty much can do lots more stuff.. can't hardly wait to go back to Miri and hang out with Tyler... hehhehe...

Yours Truly =)

WTF!!!

2008-05-17T12:28:00.006+08:00

How would you feel if you have someone that annoyed you in your own house but you pretty much canNOT do anything as she is your professor other MSc student and you have to collaborate with her. How would you feel if she pretty much lay around and didn't do household chores and didn't help you when you are cooking or cleaning the house? How would you feel if the only things that she care about is to get married and give birth when she is 26 years old and yet she is worried when there's no fruit around and she didn't even bother to come and check for the past few months but she wanted to quit? How would you feel if she played her recorded conversation in her mobile that she have with the other half over and over again and you pretty much can remember the words in it? I felt like I want to kill somebody and shoot that person in the head...

Yours Truly =)

Tired and I need My FULL BODY Massage..

2008-05-15T13:14:00.004+08:00

Can somebody fly someone to my place right now? I so need someone here right now. Or maybe the Thai girl massager or what do we called them ah? I need someone to massage me. My body ache so much from working so hard this few days. Walking in the jungle for few hours everyday. Sit for hours on my lab doing lab works. Stay up till 4am almost every night. Wake up at 10am to start doing lab works. What have I become in order to pursue higher education level? I am a human robot this days. *sigh*

Yours Truly =)