What Life Is?? Can Anybody Tell me...

I don't know what happen to my life lately.. 1 minute I was happy and the others I was down... And the problem is, I don't even know what my problems was.. I guess it has something to do with my last Raya vacation... or perhaps I have been holding it long enough in my heart and mind.. I don't know what wrong with me... I like to be alone even I miss talking to somebody.. I want to walk alone but at the same time I wish there would be someone holdings my hand.. Can somebody figure it out for me... I have so much to say but I can put it into words... I wish I was happier about life.. I wish I have my beloved ones here with me.. I wish that all my wishes come true... It may sound childish, but the truth is I needed all of you badly...