On the Move

My research back at Kuala Krau, Pahang is due anytime. Once I am finish its mean that I will move back to KL permanently for a few months. This is cuz I will have to do the data analysis and writing for my thesis. Its a good thing at the same time cuz its mean that I am going to finish my study very2 soon and yet....... only God knows why!! I am still not sure whether my application to be transfered to KL permanently to my boss is accepted or not. But I do hope I will...

Another trouble is finding a new house. All this while I was staying at my brother's house. I wanted to get my own since I am here back in 2007 but he didn't allow me. But now I have better reason cuz he's married and he got to live his own life now. He doesn't need me to do the household chores for him anymore. but, I can't just let him on his own. I will still do my responsibility as his sister. I will do come back and check up on him and his wife. He is still my family after all. Finding a new house in KL area is not easy, finding a roomate is not easy as well. You might get what you want, a happy set of roomate and housemate or the Grumpy Old-Nanny. So, Debbie.. here is the option. Do you want to move in with me? hahahhahha...

Anyway, I'll talk more on this on the nexy post. I still have a lot in mind but still not sure about it. Till then...

Yours Truly =)

Update : for the silent months

I am sorry that I didn't manage to update this blog of mine frequently.Still very busy with my MSc because I am a bit behind the schedule. BUt I promise that once I am done, I'll be back to this blogging world again.

Here are some of the update;

Was back to my hometown last month for my brother's wedding. He was the first one in my siblings to get married. And guess what, the guests during the wedding is more than 4 thousand. We were so damn tired for working non-stop in order to make sure that the wedding runs perfectly. But we had fun too. will try to upload the photos next time as I am using someone laptop right now.

Last week I was at Fraser's Hill, doing the International Bird Race. Its the first time that I join it. I do have fun but somehow I am not satisfied on how they categorize the participants. Come on guys, I am a novice. I've never join the event before. Even if I am working with a wildlife conservation based company, it doesn't mean that I am an expert for every single animals. If I knew that this gonna be like that, i'll ID more and work harder. Bu I was there only to have fun, but yet you guys destroy the fun part. Bu I'll come back again next year. And this time if you put in me the advance group again, I'll fight for the prize. I'll do more work. I'll ID more birds. You watch me doing it.

Yesterday, I was at the University. Presenting part of my MSc research results. I was so nervous because to me my result haven't shows anything clearly. But at least I realize that and understand my research very well. It turn out that my presentation was better than some of the PhD students. Come on guys, you choose the research and yet you don't know why you do it.. why do PhD at the firts place? So I am quite satisfied with my research and presentation. My supervisor is happy too. I know he is proud of me because I know that I have some quality that some people didn't want to realize it and take me for granted. I can be very weak but when I found my strength, no one can defeat me. Believe me.

Anyway, I am heading back to the research centre soon. Will loook forward to update again next time. I am so losing my blogging skills here. I can't even write well anymore... this could be the lamest post ever... Hahahhaha

Yours Truly =)

Home.. Here I come

Will be going home for a short trip.. its my brother's wedding. I can't wait to go home. I miss my siblings and my mum and my dad and my grandmas... And the home cooked meal. Gosh! I miss everything about home.. But its gonna be a real pain in my heart too cuz I know everyone will probably ask 1 question. which is WHEN IS MY TURN TO GET MARRIED??? shitty lah like this. I am gonna screw those who ask me that particular question and tear them apart... HAHAHAHHA..

However, I am looking forward going back home. The last time I went back is during the Raya. Thats few months back.. Off now, need to get few stuff to bring home...



Yours Truly =)

Breaking the Silence

Dear Friends,

I am sorry for the long silence. I know some of you are and still waiting for my updates. And again I am sorry for that. I am just going thru some difficult phase in life and handling it now. Don't worry too much cause I am gonna be fine. I hope. And thanks for being there when I needed you the most. You know who you are, dear friends. Love you all.

Yours Truly =)

SEPI

Bisikku pada bulan..
Kembalikan temanku..
Kekasihku..
Syurgaku..
Tanpa dia malam menemaniku..
Sepi memelukku..
Bulan jangan biar siang..
Biar alam ni kelam..
Biar ia sepi sepertiku.

Yours Truly =)

My Birthday was 4 days ago..

And I am celebrating it alone in my rented house somewhere in Pahang. And I think this is the first time I've celebrating it alone.

Yours Truly =)

Family Affairs

My family is coming to KL tomorrow. The whole family. So I am gonna be quite busy entertaining them. And having my own cuti-cuti Malaysia as well. I hope after the holidays everything will be back to normal. No more miserable me, no more super sensitive me, no more fragile me but only the old me. OMG! I missed the old me. The one who use to have fun and laugh and just enjoying my life. But when the new me emerged from somewhere, I've become someone else. I am not so fun anymore. I am not so happy anymore. And now I just didn't want to put the blame to anyone.

back to the main topic, I am not quite sure whee we are heading. Bt it would be all around Peninsular Malaysia for sure. So, I am looking forward for them to come. Cheers everyone, I am going off to KL.

Yours Truly =)

To all My Best Girls

When the world made no sense
When the gravity was pulling me way down
When living & breathing was such a burden to me
Never once you went away
Never once you let me go astray
And for that I thank thee
For this friendship eternally
For being that driving force
The strong inspiring source
For making me wanting to live
For making me wanting to believe
That world isn't such a bad place
When I’m so blessed with your grace

p.s : Found it from someone blog. Thanks to her.

Yours Truly =)

Am I Happy???

As corny as it may sound, I am happy with my life now. I am not bothered by whatever happens for the past few months or weeks or days. For what ever dramas or gossips or scandals or politics, and everything. I learnt to let go and by letting go I am more happier than ever. I learnt not to think about it like I use too only to find answers to all my questions, all the uncertainties. And sadly never found it. I learnt to just go with the flow and I am happier by day. And I am looking forward for whatever may happen. Life is an amazing gift, and I am holding into that. Love is something mysterious, and I am not putting any hope to it anymore. If I can be happy by being single, let it be. If I can do and achieve my dreams by being single, I welcome it into my life. Marriage is so overrated. So does other stuff. What important now is I cherish every moments that I have and live my life the way I wanted it to be.

I am not perfect even to some of my friends I am are. I have my ups and downs. I have flaws. And I am not afraid to admit that. I am just another human being. And of course human do lots of mistakes in their life. But I decided not to talk about it, about other human being because I might do the same thing in my past or in the future. Take an example, when we are talking about controlling our other half. Define control. Is control and concern the same thing or not? When you asked, is it controlling or just concerned? Do the maths and go figure. Don't simply blame other people for whatever they did if you are one before, and when you did even worst. When you stick around and clung to your other half 24-7 and you are not even married yet. I felt like laughing at this kind of person. OMG! what was I am talking here. This is so out of the topic.

But, I am happier. For whatever it is. I know I will have to choose on what to do with my life. To go on with what I have plan years ago or make new plan. Its my life that I am gambling with. And whatever the consequences, I am the one who will face it. Not you and not anyone.

Yours Truly =)

Go Figure!!

Person A : Yes, she have feelings for him. But If he didn't started it, She will not have any feelings. I don't know whats going on with him cause he looks stupid to me now that he didn't know what he wants in his life. Ask him whether he want to continue with you or just with his life. Because I didn't see that Person B is disturbing him. She is my bestfriend, I know her for quite some time already. And I told her to leave him alone. Which she did. She will not try to steal other girl boyfriend.

Person B: Don't blame him. Blame me. I swear that I didn't have any feelings towards him. He didn't know anything. I am sorry that I post the entry about him which is obviously showing my feelings towards him when he left. I changed my phone number already. And I will leave him alone for you. Please be there for him. He needs you. And he will never leave you. I got secret to tell you that no one knows about, I have a fiance. And I will get a new job with his help.

Person C : I didn't do anything. I didn't even know what you guys are saying. Why Person A said that? I didn't seduce or flirt with Person B.

So, go figure... Who to trust and who is not. The puzzle is yours to solve. Good Luck!! Btw, its just a puzzle. It has nothing to do with anyone..


Yours Truly =)