Raya Holidays

The Celebration of Hari Raya is 8 days away and I will be back to my hometown in 3 days. Do I get excited? Yes and No. Yes because I am going home, at last. Means I will get to rest from doing what I am doing right now. And I seriously need that. Rest and to be able to enjoy myself at home. Its been a long time time that I didn't really spend my time with my family. The last time that I went back,which is in July is just for 4 days and I didn't really get to enjoy it because I was very sick that time. My Sinus plus migraine took it all. I was bedridden for all the time. I have been staying away from my family for the past 17 years. My secondary education was spent living in a boarding school, So I will be only back to home when its the school holidays. And sometimes, I didn't even get to spent enough time at home cause I was involved with sports and school-tuition. As one of the most privilege school back in Sabah, we have to study smart to keep up with the result. Finishing my secondary school, I was in the matriculation and again away from home. My first degree also was spent away from home and I don't really get to go back home due to my field trips. So, away I was most of the time. When I started working and being workaholic, I too spent my time doing my work. Believe me I still have almost 2 months leave cause I hardly take any leave. Trust me cause that was the truth.

I would say NO cause every time I am planning for a holiday, it is the time when some of the figs that I need to collect and samples is fruiting and ripen. Just right on time when I am not around. It got me frustrated because there is nothing I can do about it. I just hope that there is still many left over when I came back after the Raya Holidays. Finger cross. Lets be positive on this one. Please please...

Talk to him today, he told me that he got an offer from one company. Which is based in KL. If he accept the offer, he will be in KL for few months for the training and will travel overseas after that. The money is good, good enough for him compared to the current job. But he is not very sure about the job prospect. So I told him not to rush on deciding because he is still waiting for another one, which he was interviewed last week. Informal one of course. This one, the job prospect is very clear. It is something that he knew all the way. But the money might not be as good as the other one. Whatever he decide, I will support it. As long as he is happy. That's enough for me. Seeing him happy. What more can I ask right. I know that we have been thru a lot lately. We were in a very rough time, and we didn't now what the best for the relationship. What the best for us? There's to many uncertainties, too many unanswered questions. So, we put it on hold and see what gonna happen. I wanted to concentrate on my study and he's on his career. Whatever the best for each of us. Just pray for us. if it is meant to be,then it will. If it is not, we will accept it and become good friend. What more can I ask, I am lucky enough to have what I have now. Life that the others would die for, and I thanks God for all the good things.

Logging off.. I need my beauty sleep. I haven't pack anything. I am leaving to KL tommorow before going back to Sabah. Till then....

Yours Truly =)