I am a Sabahan Girl born in Sabah and grew up and stays in Sabah until I am 18 years old. And then I moved to Sarawak, particularly in Kuching to continue my first degree in UNIMAS and working in Kuching with Wildlife Conservation Society (WCS), Malaysia Program afterwards. I seldom go back home during my stays in Sarawak due to the school semester activities and my work burden when I was working. Its very hard to go back to my hometown when all I can think of is my research on going progress. And now I migrated to Peninsula Malaysia to do my second degree and perhaps will be transfered to WCS Peninsula office after finishing my study. And because of this, I always confused my new friends or the old ones. The fact that I canNOT speak Sabahan slang unless I have someone that can trigger my Sabahan slang and even if I can speak the language it is not right, the fact that my Sabahan slang is worst compared to my other siblings. and the fact that I canNOT speak my own native language fluently that I am a laughing stock to my cousins and relatives... Haiya... I am so sad... But I am what I am..
I always refer myself as a Sarawakian because the fact that I live in Sarawak for almost 9 years and I CAN speak Sarawak language better than my own, the fact that I can speak and understand few native languages in Sarawak and even far better than my own native language. I can tell you that I speak Penan language more fluent than my own Bajau language. It's a shame but I am not shy to admit this. And because I know the road in Sarawak particularly in Kuching, Serian, Miri and other parts of Sarawak better than my own hometown. Just tell me where you wanna go and then I can tell you directly where to go and how to avoid the jammed. But if you ask me the road route in Sabah, ie in KK, I am not sure whether I will give you the right direction. Its not that I am ashame to admits I am a Sabahan, its just that it come out from my mouth automatically and unintentionally. =) so don't blame me for that...
Every time someone new asked me, I would answer them I am from Sarawak.. and then the conversation go on and then some people will got confused as I tell them along. Well, I am a Sabahan but I stayed in Sarawak for the past 9 years and I know roads and language in Sarawak better then my own hometown, and now I moved to Peninsula to continue my study. And then you can see some confuse faces in front of me and they will start asking me a lot of question like I thought you are Sarawakian cause I can see the Sarawakian face in you.. Then I'll start again, and again and again.. But then, I can say that I am a Sarawakian too and why? Because my great grandfather is a Sarawakian and an Iban/Dayak and he's from Ulu Semanggang which is now known as Sri Aman. I know that his name is Bajik, which mean beautiful in Iban language. Hehhe.. true right? I know that he's one of the great soldier during his life and he went all the way to Sabah to hunt for wildlife and eventually he met my great grandmother and fell in love with her and they got married.. A very happy ending.So basically, I am a long-lost Sarawakian right? hehehe
Its so complicated to explain but then it is very easy.. its not a big issue right. What important is that we are Malaysian. But some people in Peninsula didn't know that Sabah and Sarawak are part of Malaysia. Don't get me start on this, I wont stop. Just read one of my dear friend post on this and you'll know what I mean. I don't know why some people didn't know about this, or maybe they just ignore it or maybe we use a different Geography book during our primary and secondary school or did we?. Or maybe some people just born s^#@*d and ...... Com'on man.. Sabah and Sarawak are part of Malaysia and without these two state, Malaysia is not Malaysia and many more... I should stop about it.
Moral of today story/post is Don't blame me if I can't tell you whether I am a Sabahan or Sarawakian. I am who I am... and one last fact why I always admit that I am a Sarawakian is because of the fact that my Mr. BF is a Sarawakian so if we gonna get married, I am officially can get my Sarawak PR right.. hehehhe.. so I need to practice from now... *Grin*
I always refer myself as a Sarawakian because the fact that I live in Sarawak for almost 9 years and I CAN speak Sarawak language better than my own, the fact that I can speak and understand few native languages in Sarawak and even far better than my own native language. I can tell you that I speak Penan language more fluent than my own Bajau language. It's a shame but I am not shy to admit this. And because I know the road in Sarawak particularly in Kuching, Serian, Miri and other parts of Sarawak better than my own hometown. Just tell me where you wanna go and then I can tell you directly where to go and how to avoid the jammed. But if you ask me the road route in Sabah, ie in KK, I am not sure whether I will give you the right direction. Its not that I am ashame to admits I am a Sabahan, its just that it come out from my mouth automatically and unintentionally. =) so don't blame me for that...
Every time someone new asked me, I would answer them I am from Sarawak.. and then the conversation go on and then some people will got confused as I tell them along. Well, I am a Sabahan but I stayed in Sarawak for the past 9 years and I know roads and language in Sarawak better then my own hometown, and now I moved to Peninsula to continue my study. And then you can see some confuse faces in front of me and they will start asking me a lot of question like I thought you are Sarawakian cause I can see the Sarawakian face in you.. Then I'll start again, and again and again.. But then, I can say that I am a Sarawakian too and why? Because my great grandfather is a Sarawakian and an Iban/Dayak and he's from Ulu Semanggang which is now known as Sri Aman. I know that his name is Bajik, which mean beautiful in Iban language. Hehhe.. true right? I know that he's one of the great soldier during his life and he went all the way to Sabah to hunt for wildlife and eventually he met my great grandmother and fell in love with her and they got married.. A very happy ending.So basically, I am a long-lost Sarawakian right? hehehe
Its so complicated to explain but then it is very easy.. its not a big issue right. What important is that we are Malaysian. But some people in Peninsula didn't know that Sabah and Sarawak are part of Malaysia. Don't get me start on this, I wont stop. Just read one of my dear friend post on this and you'll know what I mean. I don't know why some people didn't know about this, or maybe they just ignore it or maybe we use a different Geography book during our primary and secondary school or did we?. Or maybe some people just born s^#@*d and ...... Com'on man.. Sabah and Sarawak are part of Malaysia and without these two state, Malaysia is not Malaysia and many more... I should stop about it.
Moral of today story/post is Don't blame me if I can't tell you whether I am a Sabahan or Sarawakian. I am who I am... and one last fact why I always admit that I am a Sarawakian is because of the fact that my Mr. BF is a Sarawakian so if we gonna get married, I am officially can get my Sarawak PR right.. hehehhe.. so I need to practice from now... *Grin*
Yours Truly =)
